They say the first step is to admit you have a problem. I'm ready to do just that . . . in a few seconds. *Deep breath*
I suffer from CRD: Chronic Rewriting Disease.
At this point denial is futile. No matter how many manuscripts I work on, experience does nothing for my confidence. It's never less deletions and rewrites, and it's never just revisions. It's a whole "40% of this needs to be rewritten" deal . . . each round. Each frigging round. And let me tell you: there are a lot of rounds.
Usually in the beginning, I enjoy rewriting because I know I'm polishing whatever mumble jumble I jotted down while writing away with no worries. But after the fifth time, it's hard not to get a little down. I start thinking I suck and feel like I just have no right calling myself a writer. Sure, each time I start a new story I tell myself "I know better now" . . . but I don't.
Rewriting can take its toll on me emotionally and mentally. I've had some stressful moments, and have questioned myself a lot, but now I know it's okay. I've learned that I'm simply not capable of getting my story right the first time. And that's not necessarily negative. Now that I've made peace with the fact that I'm more a rewriter than a writer, I can forge ahead.
I know my process and I accept it.
Hard work, passion, and dedication along with a few panic attacks and sweaty moments will get me to my final product. Which I suppose isn't all that different from any other writer. My strength isn't in getting a killer story done in one shot, but in polishing and rewriting until I do. So . . . hi, my name is S.K. and I'm a rewriter.
How do you deal with writing and revisions?
Just a couple rounds?
Or are you a fellow sufferer of Chronic Rewriting Disease?
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